Xx Fighting a battle that's already lost? xXFriday's UnitOp CT2 was okay, I guess. Got the 1st question totally wrong; "bullshit"-ed my way through theory (the questions were pretty bull anyway); Rushed through Q2 in the last 15 minutes (but I think I got it correct). Ain't gonna be a pretty sight for this paper.
Anyway, pika made me realize that I was probably fighting a losing battle for the Diploma W/ Merit. Assuming there are 14 Dips W/ Merit to be given out and half to each CBE level 3.1/3.2, there'd only be 7 spaces to fill. 7 spaces can be easily filled, and so far I have already thought of 3 names (based on conservative estimation) that will "die die" appear on the list. Pessimistic (not optimistic) estimation obviously came up with more than 7, and I can assure you my name wouldn't be there.
There, another personal goal unaccomplished and lost forever.
University application is now open, I think. Frankly, I haven't given a single thought about it. There's just too much to think about, and too early to commit. Honestly, I've been trying to avoid thinking about it as much as I can, but it'll still come haunt you sooner or later. Argh. Damn crossroad, or rather more like a roundabout with infinite exits.
Sigh. Haven't started studying at all. There's nothing left to fight for. It's a dog eat dog world, and I've just been eaten. Perhaps I was made to be another cog in a giant machine.
// Citizen Erased @ 11:57 AM
