& Map of the Problematique // [MUSE]

Xx Reflections xX

Next week is the last week of lessons in school. Final exams come after CNY. Come to think of it, 3 years have gone by really quickly. I guess it's time to think about where and in what to further my studies. I think I'm the only one who's been talking about considering Australia for further studies. Giving it some thought, it doesn't seem very viable. It'll probably be really financially taxing for my parents as well.

I know my GPA has got quite a decent chance for entry into local Uni's Chemical Engineering. But I have my reasons for wanting to study overseas. I don't want to be selfish to my parents but well, if only it were so simple to explain. It hurts me when they just simply put down my not-so-subtle hints of wanting to study overseas. Worse yet, they are the ones dropping me hints to study locally. Then again, I sometimes find myself questioning if I could handle the pressures of being independant. In fact, do I even want to do Chemical Engineering? Sigh.

I'll be quite frank on this. Thursday night's dinner made me a wee little uneasy. I don't blame you for that, but it isn't an easy time for me as well. I think someone would very well understand what I mean. All I can say is I'm deeply sorry, but please do move on with life. I know this is a very lousy way to break this to you, but I really appreciate you as a good friend.

Someone commented that the music I like varies with the mood I'm in. I think you'll be able to see that perhaps I'm recovering (I hope I am). Right now, I'm really into the amazing song below. =)

Anyway, I guess this should be about all I have to say right now. Can't wait for the Phuket trip with my classmates. Hurrah! But exams first. =/

Mandy Moore - Someday We'll Know (feat. Jonathan Foreman)

Ninety miles outside Chicago
Can’t stop driving I don’t know why
So many questions, I need an answer
Two years later you're still on my mind

Whatever happened to Amelia Earheart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?

Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

Oh, Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you...

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I’m speeding by the place that I met you

For the ninety-seventh time...Tonight

Someday we’ll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we’ll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we’ll know
Why I wasn’t meant for you...
Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah

Someday we’ll know
Why Samson loved Dalilah?
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon
Someday you’ll know
That I was the one for you....

Open up the world
I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
Watched the stars crash in the sea
If I can ask God just one question
Why aren’t you here with me tonight?

// Citizen Erased @ 1:06 AM

Xx 1st 2008 Post xX

Well now. 16 days late. Anyway, I've been really busy with FYP the past 2 weeks. Basically just typing formulas and other engineering lingo into Word 2007 until 3-4am for 7 or 8 consecutive days. Submitted the 230-page report this Monday. I don't know if it will score us an A, but it's definately some effort put in, despite some mistakes that were overlooked. Well, that's what you get for last minute work.

It's been 1 year since the MUSE concert! Ahaha. Concert ended exactly 1 year ago. Heh. Anyway, I haven't got much to say. Been doing a little bit of thinking for my future. I don't know what to make of them. Obviously, as with all plans, there are some trade-offs. But I just don't know which is the better deal for me. Shall give it some more thought, some other day.

Sometimes, I just wish that all my troubles could be "gone with the wind". Sadly, that never happens. Alright alright. Shall give this post a very abrupt end. Auf wiedersehen!

"Should I be happy because you're happy? Or should I be sad because you found bliss?"

// Citizen Erased @ 9:45 PM