Xx Incompetence xXAm I stupid? I can never forgive myself for achieving such a pitiful score. Perhaps I was never cut out to do engineering work.
The other issue has been a constant pain to me. I'm not afraid to admit that I broke down today when you came to talk to me. I'm glad to have you as a confidant, really. Sorry, I know sometimes I bother you with all the minor details, but you've never been impatient with me. I haven't given up on my quest for Dip w/ Merit, and you told me not to. It'd be a pity to lose it just because I didn't give a damn about it.
I guess no one can understand what I'm going through right now.
// Citizen Erased @ 9:09 PM
Xx Insomnia xXI lost sleep again. Didn't sleep a wink till around 5am, thus decided to skip today's IS lessons. Been trying to climb out of this downward spiral for quite some time now, but didn't expect it to be this difficult.
PTEC common test tomorrow. Lecturer said it's gonna be mind bending (in my own words). Ha. Shall start reading up soon. Like seriously, how tough can it be? Ok, it's still to early to say since it's his first time setting a paper.
I'm getting sick of PED already. Kinda feels like OBC is putting up airs ever since he became Course Manager. Somehow, the very respectable aura that used to be around him has turned into something really ugly. UNITOP lecturer (you know who he is) has kindly requested us to nominate OBC for some lecturer award. Ha. He's so not getting my vote. To be fair, we did vote for OBC when he was teaching TPHM last year. Somehow, it didn't materialize.
Christmas is coming, and I dread it. Seems like everyone is kinda jolly during this time of the year, probably due to the annual bonus or something. To me, it just signifies the end of another year; a time to think about our actions in that fleeting year.
Sigh. Might come up with a long post to sum up this year. Depends on how much I'm willing to write though. I've learnt my lesson: "How much is too much to know?"
Till next time, Auf wiedersehen.
// Citizen Erased @ 12:38 PM
Xx 1st Wala Wala Night Out xXAlright. Last night was the night I got high on alcohol. Wing, WJ, Alex and I made a trip down to Wala Wala at Holland V. Shaun joined us later on. Anyway, it was a tight squeeze at the second floor, but that's where the band was playing. Gotta go there like really early, otherwise it'd be fullhouse by ~8.30pm and you'll be left standing.
The band playing during the Happy Hour period was pretty good. 'twas a Fillipino group that played those really old school, typical Class 95FM songs. The solo played by the classical guitarist was quite jaw dropping.
Beer during Happy Hour goes 1 for 1. Totally awesome. Hahahaha. Think I drank at least 3.5 pints last night. The pizza was quite well done, but I think Timbre does it better. EIC played last night's second set, from 9.30pm onwards. Quite a "pop-ish" band. Plays the typical mainstream songs la. Still pretty good though.
We left at around 11pm. I was pretty tipsy and couldn't really walk straight. Couldn't stop giggling either. It wasn't a really horrible feeling though. In fact, it felt strangely pleasing. Hahahaha.
Anyway, that's about it for last night. Oh ya, Harvard went for a date with his
pgf last night at Holland V's Sushi Tei. Damn! We totally forgot to loosely stuff some condoms in his wallet, so it'd fall out when he opens it up to pay for dinner. Muahaha. Evil plan! Meh-heh.
PED's progress is pretty good, I guess. With the
motherlode, everything can be accomplished. Then again, it's still too early to say if our efforts will reap an A (AD) for this. Ha.
Guess that's about it. Shall go work on our calculation spreadsheets for PED. Till next time, Auf wiedersehen!
// Citizen Erased @ 3:27 PM
Xx Constricted xXNever thought I'd do what I did on Monday morning. Stupid, I guess. Perhaps, ignorance really is bliss. I don't know when I'll pick myself up again. I need my dose of alcohol. Not the healthiest way to deal with it, but the best given this situation. Why is it that at the end of every year, my life's so miserable?
Been really sluggish the past week. I let the tutorials, reports and assignments pile up. Now, I don't even feel like touching a single one of them.
2nd Brother has gone to the States to work for 6 months. Mum says he's anxious and depressed 'coz he doesn't wanna stay there alone. Sis-in-law took a month's leave to accompany him and hopefully, he'll settle in. Mum says if he's still having problems, we might have to fly over next March to join him. I'd love to visit the States. But for a month, with my parents? Hmmm... I just don't know if I'll enjoy it.
I need a bigger desk!
Look at what's in the fridge. I didn't buy that. My mum did, for me. Ha!
// Citizen Erased @ 8:17 PM
