Linkin Park - Hybrid Theory
Linkin Park - Meteora
Linkin Park - Projekt Revolution
Linkin Park - Reanimation
Linkin Park - Minutes To Midnight
Good Charlotte - The Chronicles Of Life & Death
Good Charlotte - Good Morning Revival
Matchbox Twenty - Yourself Or Someone Like You
Funeral For A Friend - Tales Don't Tell Themselves
Funeral For A Friend - Hours
Funeral For A Friend - Casually Dressed and Deep in Conversation
+ Select songs from Muse, Yellowcard, Evanescence, Savage Garden, Blah blah blah, etc., etc.
It's common to associate smiles with emotions of joy and euphoria. Yet the smile may just be a facade, subtly concealing one's underlying troubles.
I really wish I knew what's going through your head. Is your superficial expression reflecting what's really going on beneath the skin?
The more I dig, the more I uncover, the deeper I get sucked into this pitfall. Sometimes, I wonder if just being totally ignorant would free me. But, is it really possible to find bliss in ignorance?
In any case, time is running out. I have a gut feeling I will probably leave this unresolved. I know I often tell Elaine, no matter what decisions we make, the most important thing is to not regret it. Perhaps, sometimes there really isn't any option but to resent certain decisions we have made in our lives.
Unhappy things aside, for now. Went for Sulzer's Sports Day yesterday. Whoa. Got this dreadful feeling when I received the email from the Recreations Committee. There was no way of escaping this event. Anyway, it was held at Yishun Safra Club. Activities were Slab Wall Climbing, Air Rifle Shooting and Water Telematch.
I didn't climb the wall, 'coz I was feeling too "Sianz-ed". Shot at the Air Rifle Range. It wasn't that bad. Last was the Water Telematch. I don't know what got into me (I think it was the heat), but I decided to join this event. It was pretty fun actually. Haven't got into a swimming pool for a very long time. Anyway, I screwed up at one of the 4 games la. (At least I did contribute to winning the first round ok?! Heh.) In the end, my group (Green) got tied with Red for 1st place. But because Red got into "1st Place" more times than we did, they won the overall event. Grah. Stupid!
Anyway, I hope the other team mates don't have any hard feelings on me. Jia lat, scully I get a rubbish bin thrown over my head and get beaten into oblivion on Monday when I return to office. Tee hee. Anyway, I haven't claimed my prize yet from the RC. It's a thermos flask, I think.
Shall post photos if I do get them. Till next time, Auf Wiedersehen!
// Citizen Erased @ 1:50 PM
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Xx My December xX
Linkin Park - My December
This is my December This is my time of the year This is my December This is all so clear This is my December This is my snow covered home This is my December This is me alone
And I Just wish that I didn't feel Like there was Something I missed And I Take back all The things I said To make you Feel like that And I Just wish that I didn't feel Like there was Something I missed And I Take back all the Things I said to you
And I give it all away Just to have somewhere To go to Give it all away To have someone To come home to
This is my December These are my snow-covered trees This is me pretending This is all I need
(Chorus)
This is my December This is my time of the year This is my December This is all so clear
And I give it all away Just to have somewhere To go to Give it all away To have someone To come home to ***
Been quite busy this week. Perhaps I delayed the projects on hand a little too much last week. In any case, workload should be pretty ok tomorrow.
That issue is still lingering in my sea of thoughts. To Aiwei, this isn't about J anymore. I'm over it already. To he/she who knows it better, I've somewhat given up already, despite having yet to learn the full picture of the situation. Although like you said, some people really don't have a choice but to pick the second option.
Oh well, life isn't always what we want it to be. Gotta move on, someday.
-Mentally exhausted; Emotionally spent-
// Citizen Erased @ 11:13 PM
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
Xx Impressionless Presence xX
With the recent leaving (I don't mean death) of a friend, albeit a relatively short time frame of interaction, it dawned upon me the inappreciable amount of her presence she has left behind. Is this really what she deserves? Is this the treatment the subsequent ones should receive?
Perhaps I'm just too selfish or sympathetic, but I really don't feel it's right. The reason for the card was for everyone to pen their thoughts down, at least there's something to remember from. I would've sent it with only my writings if I had forseen this. Granted, time is a constraint. Flashy and intricate memorabilia are probably way out of the question. But, what's a sole present going to do? How much of a person can you remember from a gift?
Spending time on the roof has given me some space for thoughts. Should I even try so hard? Why am I placing myself next to him? Is this my innate nature or was I brought up this way? The thought of me liking my work for the reason that my presence was appreciated are simply delusions and naivety on my part. I'm just someone that's replaced every six months. Existance hardly imprinted except on several quotations or such.
Dyna knew what was going through my head just from that single line I said to her on the roof tonight. Hearing comments such as "You should learn ...", "Wah, ...'s work (Followed by some positive comment here)" is analogous to having your heart sucked to the bottom of your stomach (though I haven't actually physically experienced that).
I don't want to fall too hard on my knees when my time is nigh. I don't want to kick up a big sandstorm either. I guess it's time to back off and disconnect a little.
